This is the view as I left my therapy session earlier today. Isn't it beautiful, to think this green patch is right in the middle of Malmö. I am so happy I had a session booked in this afternoon cos man did I need it! Today has been shit on shit! A shitty doctor making…
A little message of hope. Yesterday me and Axel celebrated 2 years together. Who would have thought that the guy I met at the end of January 2 years ago would become such a support for me over the following years. He has had several opportunities to avoid a relationship with me from the start.…
Surgeon meeting, answers and the future possibilites

It's amazing how I can get myself so nervous about things. I mean, a meeting to just talk and get answers to all of my questions is nothing to be nervous about, yet I was soo nervous that even my rectum hurt! Haha now that wasn't fun, bloody good job it didn't stay that way…
Flat bag leakage
Last week I met up with my stoma nurse for a sort of 6 month check up..I think. She was loooovely! I'd met her at a meeting with the local organisation Ilco, and she remembered me! She thought it was strange that I was using a convex bag as my stoma isn't flat with my…
First dip!

I have missed feeling the warm sand under my feet. Making the perfect body shaped bed in the sand, feeling the warm sun on my skin and the gentle salty sea breeze as the water slowly flows in against the beach. This is heaven! It is also mine and Stevie the Stomas first proper visit…
2 years ago

2 years ago I was laid in hospital for the first time ever, well technically the date I went in was the 6th of May 2015 and I stayed for about a week. After several months of umming and aaaing and no idea what was wrong with me. Lethargic, anaemic, swollen and with extremely sensitive nose…
Don’t judge a book by its cover

One thing I have really learnt over the past few months is the fact that things are rarely how they seem. A person can be smiling and look fully healthy, but underneath it all they can be broken and scarred. Sometimes there are signs of their fight directly under the clothes and sometimes it is […]
Crazy Saturday emotions
Waking up feeling sad is so boring now! Good job skype exists so I can talk to mum, or we can at least keep each other company. And then, somehow my mood was lifted and after saying bye I had a qigong session and then put some music on. I have such a cheesy playlist…
Mush

At the weekend on our way to my cousins birthday brunch I all of a sudden heard a Mjau. I look down and see that Stevie has brought Marie from Disneys Aristocats with us. I find a big help in decorating my bags. I don't always do it, but when I do I usually get a good…
Exercise and clothing, and bags

Before surgery and even before my bad flare I decided I was going to start exercising a bit more. I know exercise is good for a lot, not just body but also the mind. I was hoping to get control over my own body, but instead lost it. Anyway, I'm back in control again, well aiming…