Happy 3 years Stevie

I don’t know if I can share this video on social media so click onto my blog and watch it! I got this idea a while back for this special day, and me being silly decided it would be fun, also, me being as last minute as I can be, did’t really give myself as much time as I should have to do it, but I’ve gotta say, I’m still pretty happy with it, and it makes me laugh!

As Pink sings:

“If someone said 3 years from now, you’d be long gone, I’d stand up and punch them put, cos they’re all wrong, I know better, cos you said forever, and ever, who knew” .

I had no idea this would happen. I took for granted that my internal organs would be mine and with me forever. I guess I took them for granted, and if someone told me 3 years ago, ok well 3 years ago and a month or something, or 5 years ago, or 10 years ago, that “you know, that large intestine of yours will be gone in a few years” I would have probably laughed in their faces and said “yeah yeah sure”.  Who plans to maybe loose an intestine ey? I know I have an intestinal chronic illness, but still, no-one ever told me this could be the outcome.

“When someone said count your blessings now, for they’re long gone
I guess I just didn’t know how, I was all wrong
They knew better, still you said forever
And ever, who knew”

I still remember my first meeting with the surgeon, when he told me about removing my large intestine and giving me a bag. My world came crashing down. This was something I had never heard about before…and I only had 4 days to get my head around it. No medicins where doing what they needed to do, and I was getting thinner and weaker, loosing more blood and still not eating. For those of you that don’t know my story, I got into an awful flare that didn’t stop. I hadn’t eaten for nearly 2 months, I just couldn’t, the pain was unreal. I wasn’t sleeping more than 2 hours. between 8-10 am, perfectly over the phone lines open hours to the doctor, I was on the toilet 35 times a day with just blood coming out of me. I was in hospital for a week and a half, getting all sorts of meditation, nutrition, hydration, and then I had to have emergency surgery.  My thoughts were al over the place, one minute not thinking it was worth living, and the next realising that surgery would save me. It hasn’t always been an easy ride, but I am eternally grateful, from the bottom of my heart, for Stevie,  for the amazing staff in the wards I was in (specially the first ward) for my amazing surgeon who did such a fantastic job with everything, for my amazing support network, my friends, my family, my boyfriend of the time. I would not have been able to get through it all without all of the above people, and it will always mean so much to me, everything that everyone did! So if any of you are reading this, you know who you are because I have thanked you so many times, but, Thank you again!
3 years on and me and Stevie are doing great together (I know, I have quite a few posts to write about the last month really, and they will come, sorry about them being late, but today is just a day of celebrating)!

Tonight we’re going out for a nice Italien meal, and bowling and I can’t wait! But until then, we are going to rest a bit! 🙂

Happy 1st of November. Happy survival day. Happy Stevie day!

(oh, and I hope you got a giggle from the video!)

 

One year ago just after I got back to the ward and finally got to see mum and Axel

One year ago just before I went off for surgery

You took my hand, you showed me how
You promised me you’d be around
Uh huh

That’s right

I took your words, and I believed
In everything you said to me
Yeah huh, that’s right

If someone said three years from now
You’d be long gone
I’d stand up and punch them out
‘Cause they’re all wrong

I know better
‘Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no, no no

I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I’d give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
For they’re long gone
I guess I just didn’t know how
I was all wrong

They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I’ll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we until we meet again
And I won’t forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You’d be long gone
I’d stand up and punch them out
‘Cause they’re all wrong and

That last kiss
I’ll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes

It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep your memory

You visit me in my sleep
My darling, Who knew
My darling, my darling
Who knew
My darling, I miss you

My darling, who knew
Who knew